I feel as though the energy, life, and will to write has been sucked right out of me the past few days and I'm at a loss for words. Me, at a loss for words? Never thought that would happen.
In case you're wondering why the lack of posts and about why it's been so "quiet" here with everything else that's going on in the world I thought I'd quickly fill you in.
The past few days have been hectic. Birthday parties, work stuff, and now Father's Day have grabbed my full attention as they should. However, yesterday morning when I signed on to check my email I read a very disturbing message.
One Look Up Fellowship reader wrote me on Wednesday 6/17. It was a really long, really emotional, and at times rambling letter. Yet, it was also a very moving and heart-wrenching letter about this individual's struggle trying to reconcile their past with their new found life in Jesus Christ.
All the details aren't important, but suffice it to say that it was CRYSTAL CLEAR that this person was being attacked by none other than Satan himself. The Father of Lies had him thinking (and believing) so many lies about himself that it was painful and sad to read from the beginning to end.
The funny thing is that I don't know this person, and outside of maybe one or two email exchanges have never corresponded with them before. Still, for whatever reason, this individual decided to write me in what was definitely a suicide letter. My heart sank.
At first, I thought that perhaps I was reading into things too much until I read comments like:
> "I was wondering: How many times God will for give some one who is saved? In the Bible it says 7 x 70= 490 times. If this is true then I'm screwed."
> "I have so screwed up my life so bad that the only answer I see is death. Death to me doesn't seem so bad. Plus my strength has all but left me. My daily fight because weaker with each passing day. And if I don't end this suffering then I am afraid I will succumb to it with out a care.I hate the man that I have become. My only hope is not for a future here and now, but in the New World, the next life where Jesus Himself is my teacher. Taking the lies and confusion out of His Word and Life. I cannot trust my own mind or heart anymore."
> "This is my view of myself: I am the true definition of a loser. I have no credentials , no education, I have grown fat and lazy,no motivation,no more hopes and dreams, the love and forgiveness in my heart grows dim, I am no longer salt or light I have lived my life in vain and now my time is coming to an end , I am a curse, a burdend for any and all, I was to my Mother and Father and to my little family. I believe the darkness has taken me and there is only one way out."
> "And what I do I will do for my family. Though we maybe separated awhile I end this curse this burden. God has given me nothing of power no poistion , no other, no title I am as invisible as it gets, the only power that I have that all flesh has and that is self destruction.I am tired of this fight it has raged for 34 years. I believe that my sins have arrived at the feet of God. I know that a person cannot keep on sinning and live, because sin leads to death. God has turned His ear from my prayers and sees me no longer. I am truly just a vapor in the air. I am beneath the very that people walk on. I have given nothing to society."
I was utterly speechless. Sadly, the worst was yet to come.
> "My prosperity is none. As I write this I know that people will do nothing but watch and see if I have the nerve to do such a thing. But that is just the nature of people.If you are a True believer then God will hear your prayer. Pray for me one more time. I will pray to God that He will grab me from falling and shake my very soul , though I am afraid that my prayer will go on deaf ears. All I want in this God forsaking life is a calling and to know that that calling is from Jesus. Three days I will ask. And after three days and I have not heard from God then I will truly know that I am a curse and God has given up on me. (Though I will never blame for given up on me , I gaven up on me awile ago) And after three days I will be no more. And I know that I will be forgotten after a time. I hope for that."
Not only was this an obvious cry for help, but it also included a specific timeline -- a call to action. I just about wept when I calculated his "three days" proclamation only to realize that he sent that message to me on Wednesday 6/17 and yesterday when I read it was Saturday 6/20 -- three days later! Oh my God was I too late!?!
Immediately, my fingers typed like never before as I wrote a response begging him not to do anything drastic. The pain from another personal experience with a family member only a couple months back was too fresh. I wasn't sure if I was in time, or if I could even make an impact, but I had to do something! I had to at least try! Many of you will recall that my wife's uncle took his own life back in April.
After sending the message I waited a few minutes for a response. Nothing. So, the next thing I did was look up this man's contact info via a search in the Yellow Pages from where he lives. Once I got that info, I then looked up the phone number for the local Police Department there and called them right away. Fortunately, they were very receptive and assured me that they would be sending a car out right away to check on that man at his residence.
That was over 24 hours ago. I haven't heard back from them. I haven't heard back from that individual. Naturally, I'm fearing the worst right now.
Please join me in saying the following prayer:
Heavenly Father, I pray that I'm not too late in coming to You with my prayer for Troy. He desperately needs Your help Lord! He is lost and drowning, but wants to live this life for You and Satan is making it so very difficult for him. I pray that he begins to see himself through Your eyes and not his own. Also, I pray that You stop the negative voices and negative thoughts being whispered to him from taking a toll on him. He loves You with all his heart and desperately wants a new life in Jesus Christ. Please renew his heart and mind and give him a heart and mind that is in line with Your perfect will for his life. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.
The strangest thing about all of this? Typically, I check my email SEVERAL TIMES A DAY and usually respond to people the same day (if not, then within 24 hours). This was the first time in a long time when I went many days before reading all my email. Why!?!
Troy, if you're ready this right now please contact me to let me know that you're ok.
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June 21, 2009
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I have prayed for this man with you JRed.
GOD please be with this man and help him with your gentle but powerful love, and light. Please hold him up LORD and don't let him fall.
o in how MUCH pain he s in ! do not give up friend whoever you are !yes this week was horrible, that means something is coming !He won t let you sink, or He would ve on me too !
Do keep looking to this site !
Lone
When I am very down and discouraged and the terrible just doesn't seem to end, it helps me to think of Job, who couldn't find a reason for what God was allowing to happen to him. But even though Job couldn't see it, God did have a reason. Job persevered and never gave up on God, and in the end it was ok, and God blessed him.
Psalm 34:18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
I pray for you Troy that you will not take your eyes off the Lord. He is our only hope in the darkness and He will save you, just hold on to Him and don't let go.
Jesus, we pray for Troy and JRed, for your peace that passes all understanding to cover and heal the lies Troy has come to believe as truth. We bind the author of deception in both of their lives, and ask for Your wisdom, light, love, divine intervention, understanding, protection, and deliverance from the plans of our adversary. We plead the blood of Jesus over the entire situation, and that what plans have been designed for evil, will become a signpost for the Glory of God instead.
Wow, Troy you are not alone. Please let us not be too late. There are many who have felt lost and alone. If you are listening, God has never worked in my life the way I "expected" him too. Whatever direction I was desperately looking I wouldn't find his response to my prayers, but as soon as I let go and relaxed he smacked me upside the head with his response. GOD IS LISTENING!!! Please don't try and hear his answer with human ears, but with an open heart. He will reveal his answer and here is the kicker, sometimes its through your trials and hardships. Don't scorn them, embrace them and ask God for discernment. Coming from someone who has attempted their own life, please do not. Don't "control" your life, you can't. Let God guide you!!!
How agonizing this is on all fronts! This is a plan straight from the pit of hell. If this man only knew how much love God has for him- and his thoughts were coming straight from the pit. Don't let the lie from the enemy steal you away from what God has for you. He uses anyone who will respond to Him and for His purpose...the sad thing is God uses nobodies the most! He doesn't want credentials or titles! Praying for Troy-that he will see through the enemy's lies and be an overcomer in Jesus name!
-km
ps my grandfather committed suicide and it is THE MOST selfish thing you can do to a family! Don't put your family through it!
8:31 What shall we then say to these things? If YHWH be for us, who can be against us?
8:32 He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?
8:33 Who shall lay any thing to the charge of YHWH's elect? It is YHWH that justifieth.
8:34 Who is he that condemneth? It is the Messiah that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of YHWH, who also maketh intercession for us.
8:35 Who shall separate us from the love of the Messiah? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
8:36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
8:37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
8:38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
8:39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of YHWH, which is in Messiah Yahushua our Saviour.
Ro 8
There are two kinds of messengers..
One kind whose mission is to deceive those not girded with enough of the WORD to be able continue to stand in this wicked evil time of trouble by faith after having done all
and
The YHWH kind of messengers are those who deliver the WORD, planting it like seed in the Garden of Yah's Eden here on Earth even in this end of the age...
Mt 13:49 So shall it be at the end of the world: the angels shall come forth, and sever the wicked from among the just,
13:50 And shall cast them into the furnace of fire: there shall be wailing and gnashing of teeth.
13:51 Yahushua saith unto them, Have ye understood all these things? They say unto him, Yea, master.
13:52 Then said he unto them, Therefore every scribe which is instructed unto the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which bringeth forth out of his treasure things new and old.
Dear Jeff, Prayers for you during this time. It must be difficult waiting to hear some thing..
For Troy.
You are not alone. My prayers are with you. So many of us have fallen durring difficult times. We have all felt hopless and heart broken. You are deeply in my prayers. I know the Lord. I have prayed for people feeling desprate that no-longer want to live. I have seen first hand what God can do with broken people! I used to be one of those people.
God has a plan for you Troy...
Please let Jeff know that you are OK I know I am not alone in saying that you will be lifted in prayer by the Look up fellow ship!!!!!
Dear Lord, We lift up our Brother Troy. Please bring him comfort during his struggle. We ask you to protect him from SATAN's attack. May he call out your name Lord.
Sister in Christ Susan
I pray that Troy will be fine and that he knows that God and his people (us) are concerned and love him even we don't know him.
I'm praying for you Troy
Nothing happens without a reason. Sad it is that you didn't call the police sooner or answer faster; but there is no such thing as a coincidence. You have done everything you can do JRed, now let go and let God. Trust in Him. I can imagine what you are going through but don't beat yourself up. Definitely not your fault.
I will pray for him.
grtz bartjan from holland.
JRed,
I just *knew* that something was not right when I haven't seen you post for 2 days. So unlike you.
I said the prayer you wrote for Troy.
To Troy:
We are finite creatures and our puny minds have difficulty grappling with what God truly is. It is the Devil who is father of all lies and the father of despair. Please know that God's mercy is INFINITE. If we are truly sorry for our sins, He always forgives. Afterall, He is our Father with a father's love for us. Know that He loves and forgives you. Tell the devil to go to Hell!
Jred,
I'm sorry to hear about that situation. (BTW-Please don't blame yourself for anything or you will added to Satan's list of attack-ees.)
A Catholic friend of mine is on top of this one:
Patriarch of Ethiopia: "The world will soon admire the Ark of the Covenant":
The revelation will take place next Friday, 6/26/09, in Rome.
The world will know the Ark of
Roma, 17 giu. (Adnkronos) -Soon the world will admire the Ark of the described in the Bible as the container of the Tables of the Law which God gave to Moses. He said the Patriarch of the Orthodox Church of Ethiopia Abuna Pauolos in Italy for the 'G8 of Religions', who tomorrow will meet Pope Benedict XVI for the first time.
(All right-is this the real deal? Should be gird our loins for the aftermath? Or another phony -fuey-false flag?)
**The Author from "The Temple at the Center of Time" book doesn't think the real ark is in Ethiopia but in the North slope of Mt. Nebo 1260 feet above sea level.
TROY
I HAVE BEEN IN YOUR SHOES.
SIX YEARS AGO I ENDED UP
IN ICU ON A VENALATOR IN COMA STATE FOR ALLMOST 3 WEEKS.
I WAS IN HOSPITAL FOR ALLMOST 2 MONTHS. GOD SAVED ME FROM TAKING
MY LIFE. IN THE LAST 3 YEARS
I HAVE BEEN DIOGNOSED W/MS AND CIDP
A RARE NERVE DISORDER. BUT MY LIFE WITH JESUS IS BETTER THEN ITS EVER BEEN. JESUS CARRIED ME WHEN I COULD NOT WALK. I ONCE THOUGHT I WAS THE BIGGEST FAILURE
BUT GOD SAW A MAN THAT WOULD HAVE A GREAT TESTIMONY AND YOU ARE THE FIRST. TRUST JESUS THE AUTHOR AND PERFECTOR OF OUR FAITH. I AM HERE FOR YOU.
YOUR BROTHER IN CHRIST.
God, you love us every step of the way. Shine through the gloom and open our eyes to your love. Keep our brothers in peace and safety. Heal us of our wounds. Give us work to do for the people in your kingdom to come. In Jesus' holy name I pray. Amen.
Jeff, please don't blame yourself for this situation. I'm agreeing in prayer for Troy that God will reach him in time. Please keep us posted as soon as you hear anything.
For both my brothers in Christ, Troy and Jred.
You are both in my prayers. If God only forgave 490 times, we would all be in big trouble. Our advocate is Jesus Christ. I can't think of a better one. If we repent, God is faithful to forgive. Trust in our Savior in all things. Depression is a terrible thing. I have been there. It seems, Troy, that someone is filling your head with lies out of the pit of hell. If you were not God's, you wouldn't really care about getting sin out of your life. You are still young, and overcoming sin can take time. It is a process, not something that comes at once. Only our Salvation comes immediatly. The rest takes work. Do not take a verse or there. Read God's word, and Pray for discernment. Trust in our Savior. Nothing can snatch you from his hands.
Karla Jo
So sorry to read these things from Troy. Praying for him too. And praying for you that you won't believe that you are somehow to blame.
Diana
Jred,
As a nurse working at hospitals, we were only allowed to give information to families and then only if permitted. Please know that delay is not necessarily failure. It may only be a delay in hearing what happened. Troy will have a great story of his deliverence to tell the Look up fellowship group once he is able. KNOW THAT FAITH IS THE THINGS HOPED FOR BUT NOT YET SEEN! The police will most likely not give information either as you are not family.
I have and will continue to pray for Troy and you. We have a saying at our church. PUSH Pray until something happens. Keep us up on the information you receive and I will PUSH through in prayer.
God bless you.
PS Happy Fathers Day (Don't let satan steal your happiness in fatherhood on this day)
Jodi
God bless you Troy, I hope your OK.
Very strange. Our next door neighbor took his own life this past week. Fortunately my husband had talked to him about the Lord several times. He seemed happy. We never know.
This is June 21st now, but I have prayed about Troy. The Lord is not restricted to earth time.
This is a terrible time on earth, but unfortunately it is only the beginning of the things to come. I fear that even Christians will begin to lose hope, something we must not do. The Blessed Hope is our only hope.
I'm praying for you, too. You must not take on the guilt of anyone else's actions.
Maranatha.
I do not know this person called Troy. I do not even know the credibility of the posts he left. But it seems they are real. And if it's true, then I feel bad for him.
I also went through a lot of hard times. But what kept me going on in high hopes is the Word of God. Yes, the power of the Word of God should never be underestimated. Jesus Christ pointed out in Matthew 4:4 that, "Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God." The Word of God is our spiritual food! Maybe Troy was denying his spiritual needs for so long.
I do hope Troy is okay. This is very sad. :(
Troy i hope you chose to live brother.....many people here seem to care that you do. Lord help!
I too am lifting troy up in prayer tonight.
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Don't give up my brother, don't give in to the lies.
You think the idea to take your life came from you?
I don't think so - I think the idea of suicide (in your mind) comes from the enemy of your soul.
**
My mother took her own life when I was only 8 years old, I have had three friends, and an uncle also commit suicide.
**
I am now 46 years old, from about the age of 17-27 I used to think about suicide off and on. Even after I became a christian at the age of 19 I was still "plagued" by suicidal thoughts at times - especially when I wasn't walking closely to the Lord and was feeling guilty about it. The Lord finally set me free from these thoughts by shining the light of truth into my soul and showing me that it wasn't "my idea" to kill myself - it was the "idea of the enemy", the enemy who comes to kill and to steal, and the enemy who rages about like a lion to attack and condemn the brethern.
**
By "realizing/knowing" that these thoughts were an intruder I became immediately and progressively empowered to "shake them off" and to move beyond them.
**
The truth shall set you free my brother.
I am rooting, and praying for you tonight in Northern California.
In his love,
Randy
Satan, I rebuke you in the Name of Jesus! Take your hands off Troy, leave him alone!
Holy Spirit, in Jesus' Name I ask that you infuse Troy with Your Holiness and life giving light. Rescue Troy from the father of all lies and the minions trying to squeeze his life away. Jesus, show Troy that Your precious Blood causes our Heavenly Father to see us as pure, holy and sanctified. Take hold of that new babe in Christ and save him from drowning in the darkness that the evil one has dumped on him! I know that for the enemy to wage this type of attack, there is something wonderful you have planned for him, Your new babe, because there would be no such attack if that were not true. I thank You and Praise You Father God for your mighty power and glory. Jesus, you said you would not even one of us! This, Your Sheep, is not lost, but is covered with the muck that the enemy uses on Your chosen ones, and I believe in Your awesome power and glory. Thank you for rescuing this one child from the very flames themselves, and show him how You see him, Lord. Give him great Christ-esteem as You have given me. Thank You Father that You always answer my prayers in the affirmative, and thank You for Troy. We know that there is NO task ahead of us that's greater than You behind us. Thank you for Troy, Lord, and thank You most of all for You, our mighty and loving God. In Jesus' Name I ask for Troys rescue... Amen.
My father-in-law committed suicide, and it was the most hurtful thing my husband and I have ever experienced. We cannot ask dad why, or offer him love and support. We feel rejected and abandoned. It took the very last penny we had to take care of his funeral expenses. We were left bankrupt in our feelings because of the perceived betrayal. The question of why will never be answered until we see Jesus face-to-face. The whole thing was just awful. And the bad part is, he did this just a few short months after my own father passed away adding pain and anger to the already existing grief. Just remember, that there is no task ahead of you that's greater than the Power behind you, and that is our Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit, the greatest Power and Glory there is. There is nothing He can't do or can't fix. My life was a mess too, but the Glory of God cleaned me up, changed my life, and brought me out of the muck and the mire. I don't care what others think of me, I'm safely tucked into Jesus' Mighty Hands and that's all that matters. If God can clean my life up, then I know He can do the same for you. Don't give into the lie from the enemy, just ask God, in Jesus' Name, to rescue you. If He did that for me, I KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT I KNOW IN MY KNOWER that He will do it for you too if you ask him.
It seems that our enemy is really working overtime. I am agreeing in prayer for Troy (and you too Jeff). May the LORD turn this situation for His glory.
YSIC
Dear Troy,
We have all questioned our salvation at one time or another. God is faithful to forgive us if we confess our sins at all times.
Remember, the spirit convicts, it does not condemn. Satan is the voice of condemnation. My mentor once told me that if all she hear in her spirit was how awful a person she was, she knew she was moving in the right direction with the Lord, but if all she heard was what a great person she was, she knew the she needed to be in the Word, in his presence and on her knees.
in the name of Jesus, resist and rebuke Satan, then go put on the full armor of God. Ephesians 6:10-18
Smile, Troy, for God has chosen you; otherwise satan wouldn't be chasing you so hard.
Kim
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. I John 1:9
There is no number limit.
When Jesus said "seventy times seven," he was using that as an exaggerated number (Peter thought seven times was a lot). Jesus could just as easily said "Seven million times," but then somebody (probably me) would be worrying about the seven-million-and-first.
Seriously, though, I'm praying for Troy. I have felt the same kinds of depressed feelings, but I know that my God is greater than all of them.
I've been praying for both of you. Remember that no matter what happens, God is in complete control of the situation; nothing can happen that doesn't first pass through his hands.
Sharon
JRed,
I also have prayed for Troy's safety and deliverance from evil demons and am saddened by this.
God's will is done daily here on earth, as in Heaven...He is in control of all and we must believe, accept and drive on in the direction He ordains for us.
I will continue to pray for all affected and involved in this.
BostonRog
jred, remember that GOD stands outside of time, he heard yours and our prayers even before we uttered them. shalom
troy if you are reading these comments i know where you are coming from. every day i feel the same way as i have no purpose and am no contribution to the world. however my family is the only thing that keeps me from making that decision. its time i let god take complete control and stop relying on myself to figure every thing out and truly pray to him and listen. my heart and prayers go out to you.
I keep checking back to see if Troy has contacted you saying he is alright.
I know how he feels, I feel like I'm just a step or two behind him. I have trouble getting out of bed in the morning from my depression. I feel so useless.
I was laid off in July 08 and I am ashamed to be on unemployment for the first time in my 50 years. It will run out soon. I was employed 19 years at the same job in the IT field and 8 years at the job before that in the same field.
My marriage failed, I have two boys 12 and 17. They both grew up going to church as it is a requirement in my house. My 12yo operates at a second grade level. My 17yo seems perpetually mad at the world, he hits, berates and picks on his little brother all the time. My ex wife is a non believer and belittles me for my trust in Christ, saying lately "she doesn't have to go to church and pray for a job like me". That hurts, it seems like Satan is giving her a victory over me.
I pray and fast for a door to open. I read my bible daily and search for answers. I pray for Christs return because I feel I can't or don't want to carry on. I don't like this world anymore. Why was my youngest born like that?, I ask God, and will you do a miracle for me and heal him? I get no reply and wonder why. I would give everything I own, even my life. Three years ago I absolutely decided to change my life completely to try my best to be like Christ, to take the sins out of my life as much as I could. I thought things would change for the better but they actually got worse.
I ended up here reading Jeff's posts, as I am always looking for clues to the rapture. I was really disappointed when 5/31 didn't happen.
I keep going with the thought that God will come through. Maybe in my darkest hour, hopefully before. I have two sons that watch me and I try to set the best example I can. Taking my own life, what kind of example would that be?
Troy don't quit, I haven't. God, I am sure will come through for you and me. Life could be worse, you could be me and believe me I didn't put my laundry list of sins, failings and short coming down or this would be a novel.
I am praying for you Troy, as many others here are too, I hope you know that. I am praying that you get re energized Jeff. I don't know how you do it. You amaze me.
God Bless us one and all.
In Christ's Holy name, Amen
To Troy and all those others of us that feel invisible: It's OK to be invisible! We do not think the way God thinks. Maybe he is watching you, observing whether you 'have to be visible' in the world, or whether you are content to live in His calling..quiet, confident in God's love, at rest knowing he is building in us He character...we cannot raise our fist to God and say, Hey! You make me famous! You make me precious to people! You need to use me! I need to count! I need to matter!
NO, get ahold of the truth. Grab the Bible, read the truth out loud. There are visible worshippers of God, and invisible. All are worshippers. All are known personnally by our Lord.
Those that shake the fist at heaven, that say, you better save me or I'm jumping in front of a truck...now wait, how can you mere man threated God almighty? Are you about to prove yourselfish prophecy correct?
God is HOLY. And we will ALL say that his judgements are righteous and true! You never know when he will use you...maybe to other invisible people. Stop thinking about yourself for one minute. Decide to not notice if your're invisible or not. Just go outside, and life your hands and your eyes to heaven, and praise him--aloud or silently, does not matter. Let the earth witness your confession of Christ, that may be your total contribution but who are you to say I will only live if I can serve Christ visibly to the world?
Maybe God wants you all to himself, maybe he wants a praiser, a truster, a joy giver. You can always bless others, God will bring you ways.
Just lift up your eyes from yourself and put them firmly on Jesus Christ. Remember when Peter wanted to walk on the water, Jesus said "Come." ..Jesus gave him the WAY. Peter looked DOWN at all the swirling water, and sunk. Don't look down DEAR TROY, look UP, look outside yourself.
Don't rate your life for and in Christ, dear Brother. That is his job. He gave you LIFE, He saved YOU. Call him SAVIOR, MY KING, MY LORD, call yourself his child, his servant, his friend! Remember, the King of Kings has called you "My Beloved."
You are not above HIM or His opinion, in order that you could judge his statements wrong.
Stand Up, now, be Strong! Be Strong, now, you are much loved of the Lord!
Do not ever underestimate the sight of God. He sees you, Dear Quiet Brother. And your praise is heard. You are right there in the palm of his hand, next to me.
TROY, DON'T DO IT. I believe with all my heart that a curse was laid upon you. I never used to believe in curses, I thought they didn't exist or that only silly people believed in them, or worse, that people would abuse the notion. By all means, see a counselor first. BUT DO NOT DISCOUNT THE POSSIBILITY OF A CURSE. Seek out a pastor or a priest or other fellow Christians to pray over you.
I had an unusual "coincidental" situation two weeks ago with third party verification that curses do exist, and they CAN BE LIFTED with prayer. I believe they are more pervasive than we know.
Do NOT try to lift the curse alone. Ask others to pray with you, to bind the demons and send them back to hell.
God Bless, and heed the poster above you mentioned that God almost always used the humble and the small to do His great works, not the credentialed and mighty!
Stay with us!
Romans Chapter 8 has already been posted in the responses. This is the best answer, I think. I love this whole chapter of scripture. And in this, the final lap of our race, we can find enormous comfort and hope. Troy, I pray to God you're still in this race with us. You are not alone, ever! I've been plagued with the same lies over the last couple of weeks. But, you know what? None of us should be looking right now at what worldly accomplishments we've attained or not. I have nothing to boast this side of heaven except the cross of Christ. And His precius blood that covers me, covers you, too. I'm praying. And I'm praying for everyone who feels beset and battle-worn;knowing that Jesus has and will provide for each of us all we need to finish this race. He's right there and waiting at the finish line. I can hear Him encouraging. I can see Him waving us on. Let's keep watching Him!
jred,
please be aware that NOT every "boy who cries wolf" is the REAL THING!!!
your lead off is the tip off:
"i feel as if all my life energy has been drained off"!!!
*sigh*
have you ever heard of :
"energy vampires?"
these are the ones who prey on kind and caring hearts, who suck the life force out of you...
they pretend to be in some sort of distress and then sit back in delight at the destruction they unleash on the unsuspecting person...
unfortunately, you may bve the target of a demonic assault perpetrated by occultic forces which are trying to STIFLE AND QUENCH YOUR PROPHETIC GIFT!!!
PLEASE take a step back, take a deep breath, and ask Father what is really going on...
HIS HOLY SPIRIT will speak into your heart what the REAL DEAL IS...
i know, i know, you have to do the right thing, esp. when suicide is mentioned, but remember, guard your heart...
not all that glistens is gold...
there is such a thing as a wolf in sheeps clothing...
test the spirits...
i will pray for you!!!
ps i am saying this because i have been, and am being cyber-stalked by someone who feeds off of my energy... my cell phone is hacked, my email is hacked...
and it all started by a scenario similar to that which you are experiencing...
shalom
Troy,
I understand what you must be going through, the pain and suffering that you must feel. I too have been in such a position, and I destroyed my life and family. I have done terrible things perhaps even unforgivable things. I fell into the grip of the Evil One, I hurt the very people I loved the most. I am the kind of person that is hated without exception by all believers and non-believers alike though out the world and I couldn’t help but think at times even by God himself. I became a criminal and felon, I had lost everything, I was alone. My life was in shambles and I too tried to take my life to end the pain and suffering I was in and caused. It was on that day that I reach the end of my strength, I prayed for God to give me a sign to show me a something to guide me… and I got nothing, I was testing God and he ignored me. I took enough medication to kill anything on the planet, and then I lay down to die. It was a sure thing I had done my home work and made my plans, nothing and no one could stop it, it was all finally going to be over, or so I thought. For what ever reasons God moved that day and brought me back, I was horrified when I awoke from my eternal slumber. I became angry and cursed God for not letting me die. I then grabbed the sharpest knife I had, so I could once and for all prove that I not God controlled my destiny. I ran the knife over the veins in my arm, and I watched in utter disbelief as the Lord God healed the deep cut I had inflicted upon myself. I screamed out furious and tried over and over again only to find that my arm had become like steel, the knife only scratching the skin. I drop the knife and collapsed on the kitchen floor crying, God had won; he and only he could decide when I would die and he had other plans. That was twelve years ago when that unlikely miracle occurred in my life and saved me from certain death and eternal damnation. I still wait for God to reveal his plans; my only purpose in life is to serve him in what ever way he wishes, for you see my life now belongs to him. The last twelve years have tested me in ways no man could endure, but God has given me hope and strength. Even today I am hated and now I have found myself jobless. For what purpose? Why? What is it am I suppose to do? What is it that God would spare me? Even today I do not know. I put my faith in the Lord God. It seems his messages are subtle, he speaks to me by leaving clues here and their. It seems now he is asking me to move far north away from what few people that I love and care for. God is even using the Evil Ones weapons (Like the Media) to show me sign for what I am to do. So I will go were God wants me to go and though I have no money to do this God has provided the means. It is a difficult thing the Lord is asking of me but I must do as God wishes.
Now before anyone tries to test the Lord know that this miracle was my own personal experience and mine alone. He moves in mysterious ways and nothing truer can be said for his ways are not ours. God pulled me out of the flames for his own reasons.
Troy, God may indeed be speaking to you but not in ways that are obvious to you unless your eyes be open. Pay attention and realize that even though you suffer that there is purpose behind that. For me it was to bring me back to him for I was lost even though I knew it not before these things occurred. The things I have endured since then were vehicles to strengthen my faith. Even today I still suffer and am in pain over the harm I have done, but I am looking up to God and have faith that it is all according to his plan and purpose. My life with Christ has not gotten any easier; in fact it has only gotten harder. But the Lord God gives me strength like never before so that I may endure.
Contiued
JRed, know that these things are the workings of the Evil One his goal is to destroy and many have fallen, and though you may feel responsible you are not. I too have witness suicides and suffering, it is everywhere. Even the fact that you did not check your e-mail like normal is in my opinion according to Gods plan. God’s reasons for distracting you may not be understood but there is clearly a purpose behind it. Maybe it was for his purpose to shake Troy awake, maybe it was to show you that you must not let this world distract you, I don’t know. But I believe that there was a purpose and I believe that Gods has plans for you and though the enemy may throw things at you know that God uses these things and changes them for his own purposes. Sometimes it is so we learn from them, sometimes it is to strengthen our faith, sometimes the reasons just can not be understood by us, but believe in God and put your faith in him. You have done great things for the Lord God here in revealing the deception that surrounds us. Don’t let the Evil one stop you from you ministry. The message you did not publish may be the one someone needed the most.
I pray for you JRed and for you Troy, may God give you the strength to endure these troubling times. God has moved me to write this for I never have done anything like this before. May God move in all your lives as well.
Hated Person
In the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Sprit. I pray that this helps all who read this. Amen.
I have remembered Troy and JRed in my prayers. A few years ago one of my beloved high school teachers took his life and I cried for days - that's just too selfish and too cruel for family and friends!
We are living in strange and turbulent times - dear brothers and sisters in Christ, may we all join and pray the Lord's prayer:
"...lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil..."
P.S. Must see >>> Congressman Forbes asks the questions "Did America ever consider itself a Judeo-Christian nation?" on the floor of the US House.
http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=710d93689e7e2b835734
Your sister in Christ,
Shi
I have remembered Troy and JRed in my prayers. A few years ago one of my beloved high school teachers took his life and I cried for days - that's just too selfish and too cruel for family and friends!
We are living in strange and turbulent times - dear brothers and sisters in Christ, may we all join and pray the Lord's prayer:
"...lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil..."
P.S. Must see >>> Congressman Forbes asks the questions "Did America ever consider itself a Judeo-Christian nation?" on the floor of the US House.
http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=710d93689e7e2b835734
Your sister in Christ,
Shi
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